Friday, August 29, 2014

The Waiting Game

We have less than a month to go before our scheduled C-section so I feel like all we have to do now is just wait...wait and see if something happens...wait and see if nothing happens. Maybe everything will be fine...maybe it won't and we'll have to deal with another "infant demise" as it is described in all my medical records. This is the time in the pregnancy where I'm starting to feel the most nervous/anxious because at this point in our previous pregnancies, everything was fine (to our knowledge) until we had to have emergency deliveries at 37.5 weeks.

While we wait for our delivery date, I have non-stress tests (NSTs) every week to check the baby's heart and movements. If there is a non-reactive NST, then that means we'll probably have to have another emergency C-section and whatever has caused the non-reactive NST has already happened. So, like before, we will have very little chance of medically "fixing" the problem after the baby is born. And unfortunately, there is no way to catch in advance whatever happened with our previous babies at 37.5 weeks because we still don't know what caused their issues. We've come so far without incident, I keep hoping and praying the rest of the pregnancy continues to be that way. I know there are a lot of people praying for us and we are so grateful for all of the good thoughts and prayers that have been sent up on our behalf.

Sometimes, I get really excited when I think about the baby and other times I just feel scared of the unknown and what could happen in the next three weeks. The other day, I bought some girl baby clothes (they were on sale) - not too many though because I'm so hesitant to buy anything to add to the two or three boxes of girl clothes in the attic that have never been worn. I think this weekend I'm going to get those boxes down from the attic and find something for the baby to where when we get to take her home from the hospital! (see, I'm being optimistic, I used the word "when") Or maybe I'll just go shopping and buy her just one little special thing. We've asked friends and family to hold off on buying baby gifts and hosting baby showers until after the baby is born. It just makes things easier that way, I think. Whatever happens, we will be okay. We are hoping for the best outcome and even celebrated our hopefulness by taking some maternity photos with the super talented Lissa Chandler. Here are a few of my favorites.

I've never done maternity photos before and it was so fun to do these - I had to rely solely on Lissa to tell me what to do in each of the photos. When seeing photos of yourself, it's easy to criticize the way you look, especially when you're pregnant, but I've just come to accept that this is really how I look when I'm pregnant (white legs, chubby arms and all). And I'm okay with that. Lissa is an artist and did an amazing job with the photos.

Tuesday, August 19, 2014

Fun Family Time!

Last Friday, my mom was in town with my 2 nieces and my nephew (who is unbelievably 16 years old now!). We had a fun time just visiting and eating pork loin that Mr. Rochester expertly grilled for us all that night. After dinner we sat down and played the Justice League Face Off Dice Game which we'd recently bought on sale at Target for $5. It was a lot of fun and it's a game that Mr. Rochester and I have enjoyed playing with Trotwood lately. I actually can't remember who won that night (Mr. Rochester probably) - we actually all had a lot of bad luck when it came to the roll of the dice. I think my nephew had the worst luck and didn't actually score any points. In the photo below, everyone is waiting for Mr. Rochester to tally up the scores to see who won.
Trotwood with his cousins! He sure loved having them here to play with.

Tuesday, August 5, 2014

First day

Trotwood's first day of kindergarten was today. I know I've said this many times, but I seriously can't believe he is old enough to go to kindergarten already! Five years have passed so quickly...and he's definitely not a baby anymore. Trotwood was very excited about going to kindergarten. A few days ago we took him shopping for a few new shirts to wear to school. He picked out a Turtles shirt, a Superman shirt, and two Skylander shirts. The day we bought the shirts, he decided he was going to wear the Turtles shirt on his first day of school. When we got to his classroom this morning, he just sat down at his desk and played with some wooden beads and some leather string his teacher gave him. I feel like Mr. Rochester and I were more worried about him starting school than Trotwood was. Of course, I cried a little when we got back to our car. It's not that I'm sad he's in kindergarten...I'm just worrying over him in a new school on his first day and kindergarten marks a milestone that Trotwood really is growing up, which is what I want him to do of course, I just don't want to forget all the precious moments and memories we've had with him while he's been young.

Several weeks ago, we purchased these BOB books so Trotwood could start learning to read at home. He's been very interested in letters and sounds and would ask us frequently if certain words started with certain letters. At night before he goes to bed, one of us will sit with him as he goes through the book. I think we're on Book 11 now and it's so fun to hear Trotwood sound out the letters and make the connections to words. He still has a lot to work on but I love seeing his smile when he figures out a new word.

At the end of his school day, Trotwood was all smiles when Mr. Rochester picked him up. Mr. Rochester set the phone up so Trotwood could face time with me on their drive home. Seeing Trotwood's happy face made me feel so much better that he would be just fine in kindergarten this year.