Tuesday, December 18, 2012

Uh, Snow?

This photo was taken in February of this year. We had a light dusting of snow outside and this was the first year we let Trotwood out in it. Two years ago, we got some massive snow but Trotwood had some terrible ear infections, so we just stayed inside and enjoyed our school and workdays off. Trotwood's face in this photo just cracks me up because he's just not really sure what to think about all of this snow!

Monday, December 17, 2012

A Season Full

It looks like my dream of finishing Trotwood's first year scrapbook will not come true this year. I just tend to hop around too much in what I scrapbook. That's okay though. I created this page recently from photos taken around two years ago at Christmastime. I sure love my boys.

Featured!

My Cookies for Santa layout was featured on the Creating Keepsakes blog today! That just makes me smile.

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

December 2010 Family Photos

So, I may be a few years behind scrapping our family photos. Better late than never right? Anyway, I WILL do better this year because Lissa Clair Photos took some amazing photos of our family and I can't wait to post them on my blog. Stay tuned!

I made this layout with Robyn Meierotto's Vintage Holiday kit and Rebecca Wagler's Paper Strip templates available at Design House Digital.

Monday, December 10, 2012

Merry & Bright

Love this photo from December 2010. I just made this layout for a 1 Kit, 4 Ways feature at DHD using the new Peppermint Stick kit by Crystal Livesay and Karen Funk. Trotwood used to be so tiny. *sigh* When did my little boy get to be so big?

Sunday, December 9, 2012

Freedom

I did this layout for a recent feature at Design House Digital. Trotwood was about 8 months old in these photos and just learning to crawl. I love how big his little head looks in some of these photos.


Friday, December 7, 2012

Painting

I love this painting of Joseph & Emma Smith. The artist has done an amazing job capturing the emotion on their faces of what they must have been feeling after the death of one of their children. Lately, I've been wanting to read more about Emma Smith and how she dealt with losing so many of her children and I need to do a bit more research to find a good book about her. This may be strange, but I really want a copy of this painting even though it portrays such a sad experience. In a way...it's a bit reassuring, as is this description of a dream Emma had.
I'm not certain who the artist is for the painting although I believe it is Liz Lemon Swindle. Anyone know anything about it?

Here's an addedum to my post. My good friend Seth told me where to find it and a short description of the painting by the artist. The painting is called But For a Small Moment. (Thank you, Seth!)

Joseph and Emma Smith had been married seventeen months when their first son, Alvin, was born on June 15, 1828. He died shortly after childbirth. The next two children also died in infancy and the young couple was heartbroken. The young couple would go on to bury six of their eleven children.

Joseph said: “Why is it that... innocent children, are taken away from us? The Lord takes many away, even in infancy, that they may escape the sorrows and evils of this present world; they were too pure, too lovely, to live on earth… Notwithstanding all this, we for a moment lose sight of it, and mourn the loss, but we do not mourn as those without hope...[for] mothers, you shall have your children [again].” - History of the Church 6:366

This painting reminds me that the Lord knows our sorrows and promises us that our, "afflictions shall be but a small moment; and then, if [we] endure it well, God shall exalt [us] on high." - D&C 121:7


Sunday, December 2, 2012

Me & My Poppy (again)

About a year ago, I submitted a layout to be published in Creating Keepsakes magazine and it was accepted for publication. This was the first time I'd submitted anything digitally and couldn't believe when it was selected. You can find it on page 96 of the recent special edition of Creating Keepsakes, Scrapbooking Babies & Toddlers. I love this layout for so many reasons and am so happy with how it turned out. These are all such sweet photos of Trotwood when he was a wee thing and of Mr. Rochester's dad when he was still alive. We sure do miss him.

Friday, November 23, 2012

Cookies for Santa

These photos are from last Christmas when we made our Christmas cookies for Santa. Trotwood was so excited to put them out for Santa and I think we even made sure to put out some carrots for Santa's reindeer. The kit is a new collaboration kit by Robyn Meierotto, Gennifer Bursett, Mye de Leon, and Shannon McNab available at Design House Digital.

Thursday, November 22, 2012

Happy Thanksgiving

May we all remember to always strive to recognize the many blessings we have without focusing on what we lack while realizing that "wherever you are, whatever your circumstances may be, you are not forgotten. No matter how dark your days may seem, no matter how insignificant you may feel, no matter how overshadowed you think you may be, your Heavenly Father has not forgotten you. In fact, He loves you with an infinite love." - Pres. Dieter F. Uchtdorf, Forget Me Not

Friday, November 9, 2012

So thankful

For most of my recent digital scrapbooking "assignments," I've been looking at Trotwood's baby photos for inspiration. My goal this year was to finish his 0-1 year scrapbook and well...I'm probably nowhere near close to it. It's just so much fun working on current photos, especially because I still remember all the detail surrounding the events. Anyway, here's one I did for Robyn Meierotto and Crystal Livesay's newly released kit So Thankful yesterday. I seem to have a lot of photos of people kissing Trotwood, but it's hard because I love giving squishy babies kisses so I have a hard time not capturing that moment.

Monday, November 5, 2012

This good stuff

I participated in today's 4Play feature at Design House Digital. These photos are from November 2009 when Trotwood was just a wee little thing. We went to my dad's house for Thanksgiving and these are just a few of the sweet photos we have of him with my dad and my step-mom.

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

North and South

I just finished watching this movie again tonight. Best.ending.ever. *sigh* And now I want to watch it again. For those of you who haven't seen it, it's streaming on Netflix.

Let them eat cupcakes!

Audrey Neal, another one of our DHD designers is retiring all of her kits and they are on sale at the DHD shop. I created this layout using her confetti and cupcakes kit. This was on Trotwood's first birthday.



Monday, October 29, 2012

Funny faces

I love all of the funny, little faces Trotwood makes. This photo was taken last year in October. Gennifer Bursett, one of the designers at DHD is retiring her kits and I'm so sad to see her go! She has been such an integral part of the DHD community. This is a recent page I made using some of her Halloween kits. 
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Sunday, October 28, 2012

Relax

I recently participated in the digimorph at DHD and I was first in line on my team to scraplift the chosen layout below. Digimorph is kind of like the game of telephone. We have a team and each person on the team is supposed to scraplift or use elements or ideas from the previous person's layout in their own layout. I like scraplifting because I feel like I always get new ideas by designing from another's person's layout.
Here's what I came up with.

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Tuesday, October 23, 2012

Trick or treat

October has just flown by and I've been a bit behind on my scrapbooking this month. We've been out of town a few weekends this month and had assignments due but this weekend, I finally have a weekend with hardly anything planned so I'm hoping  I'll be able to get some more scrapbooking done. In the meantime, here's one I did for the DHD 4Play feature at the beginning of the month.

Saturday, October 6, 2012

Spooky Halloween Tree

This week has been one of the most exhausting weeks of my life because of sheer busyness and bad scheduling on my part. One of those things consisted of my volunteering to do a digital hybrid project and blog about it over at Design House Digital. I'm not what you call a very crafty person mainly because with what little leisure time I have, I usually try to relax or sleep instead of glue things together. Another reason why I started digital scrapbooking - it IS relaxing just to do this on a laptop and takes so much less time because it doesn't involve cutting things out or sewing things together. Anyway, despite how I still need to begin and finish a huge assignment for one of my classes by tomorrow night at midnight, I am glad I signed up to do the project. I've wanted to do a spooky Halloween tree for years and I really like how this turned out. Here's a picture of the tree and here's the link to my tutorial: Spooky Halloween Tree.

Tuesday, October 2, 2012

20 lbs and counting!

Just had to share, Mr. Rochester and I have been trying to lose weight for several months now (I did have a baby earlier this year), and I finally hit the 20 lb mark! For the last few weeks, I've been hovering between the 18 and 19 lb mark but yesterday morning, I finally reached 20 lbs. Hooray! Mr. Rochester's at about 25 lbs and we both are happy with the progress we've made although we still need to tone up some more and just continue trying to be healthy.

Friday, September 28, 2012

Testing update

So, we finally got back the results from all the genetic testing we had done in August and basically, our situation is still a mystery. Our DNA is normal and we don't have any recessive gene conditions that contribute to this. Mr. Rochester and I weren't really surprised with this outcome - we almost expected not to learn anything but it was good to do the testing to rule out other things. I mean, what else could we do, other than genetic testing, to try and figure this out? Now, our geneticist (I'm getting really good at spelling that word) is working with colleagues and looking into what research is being done elsewhere. Mr. Rochester and I are doing okay. Really. I feel okay about it. Today. I'd still like to find some answers but right now, I feel okay.

Tuesday, September 25, 2012

Spiderman

Love Trotwood's current obsession with superheroes. It is SO much fun! Be prepared for more superhero layouts to come!

Friday, September 21, 2012

Superheroes

Okay, so Monday I submitted another layout to Creating Keepsakes for publication and I just found out they're going to publish it in their March/April issue! I can't stop smiling. I loved the layout and although I can't post it online anywhere until after it's published, I will tell you that some Trotwood-as-Thor pictures, like the ones featured below, make appearances in the layout. I absolutely loved making the layout because it just describes the essence of our little boy's current obsession with superheroes. My weekend has been made and it's just barely started!

Wednesday, September 19, 2012

Lunch today

Today, I met my boys for lunch. The institute on campus hosts a lunch most Wednesdays and just asks for a small donation to eat. I've never been before. I picked up Trotwood from pre-school and we went to the institute building for lunch. Mr. Rochester was supposed to meet us and a new friend for lunch but he was late arriving, so Trotwood and I sat down to eat next to some friends from church and across from some people we'd just met. I was chatting with someone and didn't realize Trotwood had started his own conversation with a girl across from us until I heard her laugh and say, "Aw, that's SO sweet!" Curious, I looked down at Trotwood next to me and he was smiling. Here is what happened:

Mom: "What did you say, sweetheart?"
Trotwood (whispers and grins): "My mommy makes me happy."
Mom (smiling): "You make me happy too."
My heart melted. I wish I could save that moment forever.

Monday, September 17, 2012

All of us

We took these pictures the day Trotwood got his first haircut. Love them. I still can't believe how soft and curly his baby hair was. I did this layout for today's 4 Play feature at DHD.

Friday, September 14, 2012

Me thinks

Me thinks, this Asgardian needs a larger hammer. Have at thee!


He's been obsessed with the Avengers lately. It's so fun.

Monday, September 10, 2012

Oh so happy

I couldn't resist using this photo in a layout. Saturday, I participated in the monthly speed scrap event at Design House Digital and this is what I came up with. We are so proud of Trotwood and his potty training accomplishments (although we still have an occasional accident here and there). Click for credits.

Friday, September 7, 2012

Touchdown

School is really cutting into my scrapbook time! These photos are from FIVE years ago when Mr. Rochester and I went to a Ute game...we were so young and carefree! Click for credits.

Tuesday, September 4, 2012

Meeting family

I'm determined to do more work on Trotwood's 0-1 year album because...I need to get it printed out. It's been my goal for the last two years. It's time to focus! I did this layout for the 1 Kit Many Ways blog post at DHD. Click for credits.

Wednesday, August 29, 2012

Deep thoughts

While on the way to pick up Mr. Rochester from school yesterday, I was listening to NPR. There was some discussion going on about all the hype surrounding the Republican National Convention and who would be speaking there etc., etc. And of course, Mitt Romney's name was being repeated over and over again. Trotwood became curious about what was on the radio and here is the short conversation we had:

Trotwood: "Mommy, whas is a Romney mean?" (Whas = What is {he runs these two together sometimes when he's asking a question}Translation: What does Romney mean?)

Mommy: "Well, Romney is the name of someone who is running for the president of our country. Romney is his name."

Trotwood: "Ronnie? Like Ron Ron" (he has a friend named Ron and his parents sometimes call him Ron Ron)

Mommy: "No, ROM-ney."

Trotwood: "Rommee?"

Mommy: "Yes, that's better! Good job!

Trotwood: "Rommee." *pauses and thinks for a minute* "He is not my friend."

Oh, the deep thoughts of our little three-year old...

Monday, August 27, 2012

Discover

I just loved how this one turned out. A good friend gave us her old toy box and Trotwood has had the best time crawling in and out of it. Click for credits.

Friday, August 24, 2012

Yesterday

We drove three hours south yesterday to do some genetic testing. They took four tubes of blood from each of us. Nobody fainted. I'd say that's a good sign. We should have the results in three weeks. I'm hoping we can find out something from these tests - there's no guarantee we'll find any answers to our situation, but I am praying for them. In the meantime, the "paperwork" continues for itsaboutlove.org and we would be on the "hoping to adopt" side.

Monday, August 20, 2012

Inspiration!

My "Planes, trains, and automobiles" layout was featured again on the Club CK blog in their weekly scrapbooking inspiration section. So.cool.

Wednesday, August 15, 2012

Wagon Rider

Trotwood's grandma and papa got him a Red Radio Flyer wagon for Christmas last year and I love the photos we took when he went for his first spin in the wagon.

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

Mile High Misery

Mr. Rochester and I had the chance to go to Denver in May. I had a work conference there and we made a mini-vacation out of it. While we were there, we got some tickets to a game between the Nuggets and the Lakers. It was exciting to go but the Lakers didn't quite put out the show we were hoping for. I think the one night we went is the night they lost! It was still fun to go though!

Monday, August 13, 2012

You are my happy

I did this layout over the weekend for the 4play feature at Design House Digital. These are photos from Trotwood's third birthday. I loved the bright and cheery colors in these kits.


Wednesday, August 8, 2012

A lotta this

We've been seeing a lot of this lately at our house.

Besides Sheriff Woody, the faces of Buzz, Transformers, and Spiderman make frequent appearances on this cute little bum. Trotwood is working on potty training and he's doing a great job (most of the time). He knows what he's supposed to do but sometimes, he just doesn't want to stop what he's doing to make a trip to the bathroom. I'm sure he's thinking, "What? I have to stop playing to go to the bathroom!?" So, that's where our accidents happen. I will say, it is so strange getting used to him not having a diaper on! Without the swish-swish diaper noise, Trotwood can just sneak up on us unawares! Just more evidence of how much my little boy is growing up!

Monday, August 6, 2012

In Print

Page 32. Check me out...or rather, check out Trotwood in all his cuteness, because let's face it, he's one super cute little boy.
I think there will always be a special place in my heart for the September/October issue of Creating Keepsakes! Still can't believe my layout is in the magazine! If it's silly to get so excited over something like this, then I guess I'm just the queen of silliness right now.

Saturday, August 4, 2012

I know...

I know it's a sin...but I'm coveting these shoes
And I think I'm due for a new pair of brown shoes to wear to work. The last ones I bought were in...2004. Yes, I've worn them for about eight years (they're winter shoes) and yes, they are a bit out of style now but let me tell you, those Danskos will last you a long time. And are every bit worth the price, especially if you wear them for eight years. Yes, I think I need these...but maybe I'll wait to see if they go on a sale a bit.

And... I heart these too.

They remind me of something that would be worn back in the late 18th century.

Thursday, August 2, 2012

Adore

I loved this picture of Trotwood so much, I scrapped it right away for the recent 1 Kit, 4 Ways feature at DHD and I used the Mother Nature kits by Sara Schmutz and Erica Coombs.Love this boy.

Monday, July 30, 2012

Number 3

My sweet little boy turned three today. I can hardly believe he's been in our lives for three years now! Part of me doesn't even remember what it was like before we had him. I took off of work today and Mr. Rochester and I spent the day today doing whatever Trotwood wanted to do. First, we went to get donuts and while we were there Trotwood spotted this long, swirly lollipop and we said, "Sure, you can have a lollipop for breakfast." I mean, really, how is that much different that a donut?
Then we took him to Boingo Bounce, a local bounce house joint where he jumped, bounced, and slid his heart out. Even though it was his birthday, Mom and Dad insisted on a nap afterwards and he did not protest too much.
After a nap, he opened presents, we sang happy birthday and ate cake! Trotwood has really started to get into more superhero and robot type toys although his love of Toy Story toys still remains! He loves Transformers, Iron Man, Spiderman, and the Hulk. He also loves playing spaceships with his good buddy Clark. It's so much fun to just watch Trotwood use his imagination with his toys and since we don't have any "spaceships" at home, he makes a spaceship out of just about anything you can think of. For his birthday, we got him a few little superhero figurines and a largish Transformer RescueBot for his birthday. I think he was in heaven all day today. Mr. Rochester and I sure enjoyed just being together and participating in our little boy's fun-filled day. I love this photo below - a rare moment from today when our little fireball of energy took a moment to rest his head on his hands. About three seconds later, he was up and running again.

Tuesday, July 24, 2012

Our little one

For the last six months, I've meant to post a few pictures of our little one who was born in January. A volunteer photographer from Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep took these for us. We are so grateful to have them.

"The heart hath its own memory, like the mind. And in it are enshrined the precious keepsakes, into which is wrought the giver’s loving thought." ~ H.W. Longfellow

Saturday, July 21, 2012

Approved!

So, I haven't written much about what's going on with our medical situation lately because for awhile there it was all just a bit depressing. Our insurance denied us any genetic testing because it's not covered in our plan and the genius who looked at our case made the random determination that what was happening to us was not genetic.  Also, apparently, when I was tested for NAIT, that was considered genetic testing, and they weren't going to cover that either even though I'd gone through a case worker and thought I was doing everything the way I was supposed to. So, with the help of several people, I put together an appeal to send in to our insurance company with documentation that ended up being over 50 pages long, and I just found out this past week that we were approved for further genetic testing and our insurance will cover what was already done! When I found out, I felt so happy and relieved. It's nice to know that we might be able to find some answers. The tests aren't a guarantee but they're a step in the right direction.

It's strange how when you lose a child, it feels like a void suddenly exists somewhere in your soul and at times, you feel like it's something that may never be filled, that you may never completely be whole again. It's easy to forget about all the blessings you do have and begin to only focus on what you don't have. You forget that other people also have trials and struggle with things that may not be obvious to you and instead you only see that they have something you desperately want. There have been times in the last six months where just being at church was difficult for me because the family that sat in the pew in front, behind, or next to us had young, healthy children in the same order we did. Except theirs are all alive and jumping around the pews. And that's all I could think about throughout the entire meeting. I'm not naturally a person who gets angry frequently but more and more these past few months, I would feel angry and upset with our situation and I felt the void in my soul just expand. I felt jealous and angry when I heard of people "accidentally" getting pregnant and then just miraculously pop out a healthy baby. I have no idea what that's like - to expect that your child will actually live after you find out you're pregnant.

I don't have any great advice for dealing with all of these feelings. Lately, I'd really come to despise the way I have been feeling. I don't like feeling jealous or angry because the Lord is blessing someone else. I want to be better than that...I think it's just human to have those feelings and to struggle with the "natural man" in yourself. So, I've made a conscious decision - I'm going to work on patching up the void. I'm not sure it will ever be completely filled but I know I can work on patching it. I'm not trying to replace the children I've lost, I just need to feel whole again. Some days are definitely better than others but for the past few weeks I feel like I've had more good days than bad days. I'm once again learning to lay my burdens at the Lord's feet and understand more about the atonement. I'm smiling more and crying less. I'm trying to do more service, to appreciate my sweet little family more, and improve my relationship with my Father in Heaven. I still take comfort in the plan of salvation and the words of modern-day prophets and apostles. In the June Ensign, there was an article on infertility which included a quote by Elder Wirthlin from his "Come What May, and Love It" talk in 2008. I love what he said here about the principle of compensation:

“The Lord compensates the faithful for every loss. That which is taken away from those who love the Lord will be added unto them in His own way. While it may not come at the time we desire, the faithful will know that every tear today will eventually be returned a hundredfold with tears of rejoicing and gratitude.”

It's hard not to want the blessings I want RIGHT now, but I realize, along with many other things in my life, I need to be patient and agree to the Lord's timing. Each day, I'm becoming more and more grateful for the blessings I do have and I have found it's the little things, bit by bit, that help patch up the void in me.

Thursday, July 19, 2012

Catching Some Zzzs

I'm sure someday, my son will think I was strange for taking photos of him while he's asleep, but he's just so darn cute, I can't resist it.I did this layout for the 1 Kit 4 Ways feature at Design House Digital.

Tuesday, July 17, 2012

So delicious

I have so many photos from when Trotwood was a baby and the sad thing is, I've forgotten a lot of the stories behind the photos. This year, I've been trying to keep up with Trotwood's photos and stories in my scrapbooking but I'm still behind! Trotwood used to be such a good eater when he was a baby and I just loved his happy, little facial expressions whenever he'd try something new.
Created with Audrey Neal's 4 Tags Template, Mama Loves you Digital Kit, and Pop A Cork Alphabet to be released on July 19, 2012.