Wednesday, November 18, 2009

In all things

Well, I've been back to work now for almost a month. I dreaded returning to work after Trotwood was born because I really wanted to stay home with him...I still want to stay home with him. But returning to work hasn't been as bad as I thought it would be. This past week has been the roughest because Trotwood has started going to bed around 7:30 or 8:00 pm and it's 5:30 by the time I get home. So on weekdays, I really only get to spend about 2 hours a day with my son (plus the 30 minutes in the middle of the night when I get up with him) and that really makes me sad. On Tuesday, Mr. Rochester called me at work to tell me that Trotwood rolled over (back to front) for the first time. I was excited for Trotwood's progress, but I also felt sad that I missed it. And now here it is two days later, and I still haven't seen his great accomplishment (although I have come close)! This morning after Trotwood ate around 6 am, I put him back in his crib on his back and then I left his room. A few minutes later, I heard him making angry noises on the baby monitor so I went back in to check on him and there he was on his tummy (he's still learning to enjoy being on his tummy)! I just need to catch him in the act now.

When I started thinking about how little I get to see Trotwood during the week, a domino effect took place in my mind and I started thinking about all of the other things that make me unhappy, which led to me feeling sorry for myself. Shortly after that, I watched the 5 minute Mormon Messages video
In the Spirit of Thanksgiving and realized that even though my life may not be as picture perfect as I would like, I am happy and there are many, many things I am thankful for.

I love this quote by Elder Oaks:

"We should thank God for our adversities and pray for guidance in meeting them. It is all part of the plan. Let us give thanks for what we are and for the circumstances God has given us for our personal journey through mortality. When we understand that God offers us opportunities for blessings and blesses us through our own adversities and the adversities of others, we can understand why He has commanded us again and again to “thank the Lord thy God in all things” (D&C 59:7).

So, let me just name a few things for which I am thankful. I am thankful for a healthy, baby boy whose smiles and laughter light up my life each day. And even though I would like to see my little boy more often, I am thankful that he is going to bed early each night and usually only waking up once in the middle of the night. A few weeks ago, he wouldn't go to sleep until 10 or 11 pm at night and that was really tough so I am grateful that I can go to bed early now if I want. I am so very thankful for a loving husband and a happy marriage -- I don't know what I would do without Mr. Rochester. As Catherine says of Heathcliff so is Mr. Rochester to me: "Whatever our souls are made of, his and mine are the same." I am grateful that we were blessed with a daughter, if only for a short while in mortality, and I am thankful for the knowledge that our family will be together forever. I am grateful to have a job that provides us with health insurance and a small income while my husband continues his journey through graduate school. The more I think about all the things with which the Lord has blessed me, the longer this list gets. Each day, I hope that I can remember to "thank the Lord in all things".


Desiree said...

Aria, I know how you feel. For the past 8 years I have had the same feelings of missing my childrens lives. It is hard and I go through moments where I am miserable because of it. Thanks for the reminder to think of the blessings and things we are grateful for during those times.

Shells said...

Thanks for the reminder that I should feel blessed to stay at home with my kids. For the most part, I love it, but we definately have our days and our moments.

How much longer does Mr. T have left of school?

Shells said...

I guess it is Mr. R, not Mr. T that I was referring to.

Miss Summerson said...

LOL Michelle, that made me laugh. Mr. R is applying to PhD programs right now so he really has about 4.5 years left until he is completely finished with school. My guess is that I'll probably have to continue working until he is finished with school. I hope that we can still work things out to where he can be at home with our kids while he is in a PhD program. We'll just have to see how things go though.

Amber said...

This made me smile :)

Kel said...

Aria, you're a lovely person. Just thought you should know that.

Michelle said...

Aria you are such a good example to me! You are always trying to find the positive in every situation! It's such a blessing to have the gospel in our lives that puts things in perspective for us. Love ya girl! I hope we can see each other at Christmas!

A Little Tidbit: said...

You truly are an inspiration...even as old as I am, I admire you. What a great quote you mentioned and what a great reminder to me to remember and count my blessings in all things. Thank you for this gentle nudge! Candy